Sana kasi klaro mood mo no?

Hindi kita maintindihan, ang bipolar mo. Sa chat okay ka naman, nakakalokohan pa kita. Send ka pa ng send ng kung ano ano. Puro XD pa nga laman ng convo natin. Ang open mo pa sakin sa ilan sa problema mo. Dinidictate mo pa sakin affiliations mo. Inuumaga pa convo. Tapos tumatawag ka pa. (minsan lang, emergency) okaay na okay naman. Kaya lang bakit ganon sa personal, parang kanina, bakit parang iwas ka? Parang.. Ako kasi sensitive ako sa actions ng mga taong nakapaligid sakin. Paranoid lang ba ko? Di e. Parang iwas. Tapos yung katok ko dun sa room kasi may hinahanap lang ako, sila lahat tumingin, ikaw lang hindi. Tapos ewan, tinawag tawag mo ko pero sa una di mo ko papansinin. Tapos me kelangan akong itanong kasi kelangan e, sayo ko lang alam pwede itanong. Nag hehesitate pa ko kasi parang ayoko nang iapproach ka baka kasi nakukulitan ka or naiirita na o ano. Pero nagtext ako. Iksi ng replies mo. Kung dalawang maiksing replies. Feeling ko im so annoying pero hello, di na tayo nagkakachat, mag wawan wik nadin. Tapos ikaw kaya tumawag kasi pinapatawag mo ko, pinapapunta mo ko sa inyo kasi may sasabihin kayo. Ewan. Feeling ko talaga annoying ko kaya sabi ko nalang “ah, sige thanks po”. Nag po ako. Kahiya naman e. Tapos ayan ka nanaman, biglang okay ka ulit tapos “ingat kayo ha!” ugh. Gulo. Bipolar. O ako lang nag iisip non?

Di ako nagpopost ng to dahil may malisya or what a. Isa ka kasi sa mga kaybigan ko na bat ganun, parang takot na kong iapproach ka. Annoying ko ba? Di naman ah. Feeling ko hindi, wala naman akong ginagawa. Wala di lang ako sanay. Minsan okay. Minsan masungit ata. Aba uki a hahaha.

Di naman sa big deal, ang point lang kasi talaga nito ay nanibago ako. Thats all, bow.

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i want this diary cover! must change mine to this. ;]

i want this diary cover! must change mine to this. ;]

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a nocturnal human who keeps on blogging about self personality. Gotta continue my accounting! ♥ 

a nocturnal human who keeps on blogging about self personality. Gotta continue my accounting! ♥ 

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Hi bestfriend! tindi mo. first time kong magrereview ng ganitong oras. 3:05 pm? hapon? supposedly tulog ako ngayon. dapat gabi lang ako nag rereview, pero astig. napag review mo ‘ko ng gantong oras. alam mo bang himala yon? ha? hahaha. ge. Please guide me. :)

Hi bestfriend! tindi mo. first time kong magrereview ng ganitong oras. 3:05 pm? hapon? supposedly tulog ako ngayon. dapat gabi lang ako nag rereview, pero astig. napag review mo ‘ko ng gantong oras. alam mo bang himala yon? ha? hahaha. ge. Please guide me. :)

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Gusto ko nito! sana magkaron ng ganto sa star city, kaso siguraduhin lang nilang ligtas aba. waaa, sobrang nakakalula to pero i still want to give it a try! face your fear eka nga nila :)) ugh. 

Gusto ko nito! sana magkaron ng ganto sa star city, kaso siguraduhin lang nilang ligtas aba. waaa, sobrang nakakalula to pero i still want to give it a try! face your fear eka nga nila :)) ugh. 

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versus a new friend. wala e, pinag bigyan ako. hahaha jk. confidence, i need you back. chess @ Midnight? ngayon lang ulit haha. takot talaga ako pag lalaki kalaban ko e, that’s why I must overcome that fear. 

versus a new friend. wala e, pinag bigyan ako. hahaha jk. confidence, i need you back. chess @ Midnight? ngayon lang ulit haha. takot talaga ako pag lalaki kalaban ko e, that’s why I must overcome that fear. 

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"I don’t think it’s the most important thing in life to fit in. The most important thing in life is to dance to the beat of your own drum and to look like you’re having more fun than the people who look cool that fit in.”

Her songs.. My life is half of taylor’s compositions. I really love you, Tay!

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Confidence isn’t walking into a room with your nose in the air, and thinking you are better than everyone else, it’s walking into a room and not having to compare yourself to anyone else in the first place."
— (via m-wol)

Indeed! I need this. :)

hereiam-betterthanyesterday:

Nitong mga nakaraang araw ang daming good news, sobrang thankful at blessed ko talaga :)

Same here.. Same. 💛❤

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I see people.

Im gifted. I see people. Recently, i met a guy who has the same gift as mine. He can also see people through the way a person talks, acts, thinks, and so on. He can also distinguish one’s personality and the attitude inside her/him (gender fair language, no to sexist language). We also has the same hobby and favorites (somehow). I dont like him in romantic terms. No. I see him as a friend and also, my buddy likes him :D so going back. Im amused. Because at first, the only adjective that comes to my mind when i hear his name is.. “weirdo”. Yes he still is for me. But lesser. Im starting to appreciate his behavior and his personality.

So going back to the main topic, yes, im a psycho major in accounting. Lol. I love how i see people clearly. How i understand all the situations they’re trying to explain. How I understand the guy (who i like) ‘s feelings towards his crush (it hurs, i know). That fact that im anyone’s favorite listener flatters me. But, when he also likes me for i always understand him, for i always get his thoughts, how mature i am to know everything in his perspective..will this flatter me also? lol. Of course it will, maybe. Hahaha.

The reason why this is happening? It’s simply because im not flirty like the girl he likes. Im not mean, im honest :) the girl has a boyfriend and yet, she still chose to play around with guys. Yes, guys, plural. Im not the only one in our class who knows this. But because of this incident, di ko na gusto si guy hahaha. I see him now as a friend. :)

So okay, lagi akong lumilihis sa topic ko. Pero dahil imbestigador na, ayoko na ituloy to. Kasi tungkol na to dun sa panggagahasa sa calumpit. Tae! Mga walang awang lalaking nanggagahasa jan, dapat sainyo death penalty >_

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Latepost. Abay, napaka ganda kasi ng message. Matutuwa ka ba o maiinis? Pero salamat nadin. Panget nya kahit kelan.

Latepost. Abay, napaka ganda kasi ng message. Matutuwa ka ba o maiinis? Pero salamat nadin. Panget nya kahit kelan.

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Similar difference.

Ano daw? Contrasting. My former coach motivates me by saying “basta alam mo sa sarili mong mananalo ka, mananalo ka.” yung mga ganon. Tinetrain nya ko sa paraang hindi ako mapepressure. Yung pag din may mali ako, sasabihin nya “mali yan. Isipin mo, bakit ko to tinira? Bakit hindi ko ginawa yung kung ano naiisip mong gagawin ko?” ang galing nga e. Ganun nya ko turuan kaya nasanay ako na naka focus sa galaw ng kalaban at yun naman ang nagpapapanalo sakin. Dahil aware ako sa laban ng kalaban. Pero ngayon naman, si kuya IC nagtetrain sakin. (mag tetrain, rather. Nakaka ilang laban palang kami). Pero iba sya magturo. Nakakatuwa din naman. Kasi matagal tagal nadin huli kong laban. Almost 2 years. At after non, di na ulit ako nakapag practice. Tapos ayun, ang nasa isip ko padin, isipin kung bakit yun tira ng kalaban. Actually dun nalang ako naka focus, nakalimutan ko na yung iba pang sinabi ni coach. Nakalimutan ko nadin lahaaaat ng iba pang ginagawa ko para manalo not by just defending mine but also, attacking the opponent. Kuya IC reminded me na hindi dapat ganon. Oo nga. Dapat daw may strategy ako at may goal. Hindi yung lagi lang ako nakafocus sa tira nya. Kaya tuloy opening palang, napepressure na ko. Naiba lang ng onti, napaparanoid na ko. Ang gara. At dapat din masanay na kong lalaki kalaban ko. Hayhoe.

So sana, bumalik yung dating ako sa chess. Yung hindi ganto. Sana maturuan nila ako ng maayos bago mag Sept. 15,16,17. Godbless. Sana di ako maging disgrace ng BU chess players :( hahaha. Nahhh, kaya ko to. Sus. Ako pa ba =))

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Mag bebrain storming ako bukas hanggang sa linggo sa accounting. Kakabisaduhin ko lahat ng dapat kabisaduhin. Uno lang sapat na. Hahaha!
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